There’s a day in May set aside to honor and remember mothers. This day is often joyously filled with dinners out, heart-felt cards, phone calls, visits, special church services, photo opps, flowers, social media posts, gifts, breakfasts in bed, and more. I love that this day exists and that so many spend it showering well-deserved… Read More “Happy” Mother’s Day
My goodness, if it weren’t for laughter and a sense of humor, I don’t know how one could survive this wacky world. It’s challenging enough as it is. Life can only be described as unpredictable and crazy and sometimes awful. Here’s a glimpse into my last 3 weeks. I crashed my beloved bug convertible, survived… Read More Isn’t life just funny?
I often feel as if I have lived several lives. Maybe, if one lives long enough, everyone feels this way. I don’t really know. I just know that I have played many different roles and been many different people in my lifetime of 54 years. I will fully admit that I don’t reflect on my… Read More Life and Lives
Motherhood is complicated. It seems so straightforwardly simple. Biology, right? You grow this little baby, help him or her enter the world, take care of him for a few years, and then he or she goes on to live happily ever after. If only it was that simple. First of all, despite lots of well-meaning… Read More Happy Mother’s Day
Today marks the two year anniversary of my son’s death. How that can be true is absolutely beyond my comprehension. I’m still trying to come to grips with the fact that it even happened, so how can two years have gone by?? I haven’t written much about the grief I live with every day because… Read More Two years
I haven’t written in this space in a LONG time. I’m not sure why, but my writing seems to not come as easily these days. I still write in my journals because I know that it’s good for me, but even that hasn’t been as clear or happened as often. My thoughts are all jumbled,… Read More Memories Aren’t Good Enough
Why don’t I feel better Because I can’t or won’t. Because I don’t know the answers Or care about the questions. Why don’t I feel better Because I’m exhausted & over it all. Because I feel sad about everything Or maybe about nothing. Why don’t I feel better Because it keeps coming. Because I can’t… Read More Joy and despair coexist
I explain this crazy early morning phenomenon by going back to the hell reference. Getting up super early has always been something I’ve hated, so it stands to reason that in hell, I would be required to do so.
I’m struggling. But sometimes I’m not. Maybe that’s just the way we all are in life. I’m cleaning again. For the past two days, I’ve been cleaning out my office area. I found a bunch of my notebooks. I have notebooks for everything. I use them as journals, I use them for lists, random notes… Read More Gratitude
The other day I made a quick day trip to my old hometown of Fort Smith, Arkansas. I went with the most innocent of intentions. I had several friends who wanted some of the essential oil items that I make and sell; I was ready to get out of town for a day; one of… Read More Refuge
I’ve been cleaning a little. From what I hear, many of us have been taking time during the craziness of pandemic lockdown to clean and tackle projects around our homes. I made a list of things that needed to be done; it was longer than it should have been. I’ve been in my new home… Read More Cleaning house & looking up
Hey. Maybe I’m back to writing. Maybe I won’t write again for 8 months. This new uncertainty in the universe fits my world to a T. It’s so weird how all the craziness going on right now with COVID-19 isn’t really freaking me out. I actually told my therapist that it made me feel sort… Read More Birds
Hard to believe that I’m at a hospital on our anniversary, and it’s not with B! Hard to believe that 7 years ago we were in Belize having the time of our lives, blissfully unaware of what was about to hit. We thought we had beat the hard stuff, overcome the obstacles, and were on… Read More Today
You know that feeling when you like your new life, but the reminders of your other life are crashing in on you from a couple of directions, and it’s kind of taken you by surprise and gotten you a little off track? And then there’s something going on from that other past life that makes… Read More Flooding 2019
Grief…..you just never know. I saw a description recently that said it was like a ball in a box with a big red button. When you first experience a loss, the ball basically fills the box, so it’s always hitting the red button. Gradually the ball gets smaller, but when it does hit that button—it’s… Read More Just a night
Well, my first healthy lifestyle week ended down 8 1/2 pounds! Of course, now on Day 9, I am feeling a little overwhelmed because let’s face it—I have a long way to go. But then, don’t we all?!? That’s how I’m trying to think about this whole healthy life quest. It’s just something that is… Read More Ending the first week, and beginning the second
“Grief: deep sorrow; especially that caused by someone’s death.” – from the Oxford Language online dictionary. Synonyms listed for grief include anguish, agony, despair, heartache, misery, pain, mourning. Grief is a short word for a complicated and often misunderstood emotion. So many have tried to “figure it out” and explain grief to us by assigning… Read More Thoughts on Grief
