Why don’t I feel better Because I can’t or won’t. Because I don’t know the answers Or care about the questions. Why don’t I feel better Because I’m exhausted & over it all. Because I feel sad about everything Or maybe about nothing. Why don’t I feel better Because it keeps coming. Because I can’t… Read More Joy and despair coexist
I explain this crazy early morning phenomenon by going back to the hell reference. Getting up super early has always been something I’ve hated, so it stands to reason that in hell, I would be required to do so.
I’m struggling. But sometimes I’m not. Maybe that’s just the way we all are in life. I’m cleaning again. For the past two days, I’ve been cleaning out my office area. I found a bunch of my notebooks. I have notebooks for everything. I use them as journals, I use them for lists, random notes… Read More Gratitude
The other day I made a quick day trip to my old hometown of Fort Smith, Arkansas. I went with the most innocent of intentions. I had several friends who wanted some of the essential oil items that I make and sell; I was ready to get out of town for a day; one of… Read More Refuge
I’ve been cleaning a little. From what I hear, many of us have been taking time during the craziness of pandemic lockdown to clean and tackle projects around our homes. I made a list of things that needed to be done; it was longer than it should have been. I’ve been in my new home… Read More Cleaning house & looking up
Hey. Maybe I’m back to writing. Maybe I won’t write again for 8 months. This new uncertainty in the universe fits my world to a T. It’s so weird how all the craziness going on right now with COVID-19 isn’t really freaking me out. I actually told my therapist that it made me feel sort… Read More Birds
Hard to believe that I’m at a hospital on our anniversary, and it’s not with B! Hard to believe that 7 years ago we were in Belize having the time of our lives, blissfully unaware of what was about to hit. We thought we had beat the hard stuff, overcome the obstacles, and were on… Read More Today
You know that feeling when you like your new life, but the reminders of your other life are crashing in on you from a couple of directions, and it’s kind of taken you by surprise and gotten you a little off track? And then there’s something going on from that other past life that makes… Read More Flooding 2019
Grief…..you just never know. I saw a description recently that said it was like a ball in a box with a big red button. When you first experience a loss, the ball basically fills the box, so it’s always hitting the red button. Gradually the ball gets smaller, but when it does hit that button—it’s… Read More Just a night
If you are expecting one of my healthy diet and healthier lifestyle posts, this isn’t it. No awesome recipes or more ways to sneak some spinach into your diet. Nope, this is one of my “Facing Challenges” or otherwise known as whiny posts. Why do I not feel better? Why am I not “cured” of… Read More Just Why?