There’s a day in May set aside to honor and remember mothers. This day is often joyously filled with dinners out, heart-felt cards, phone calls, visits, special church services, photo opps, flowers, social media posts, gifts, breakfasts in bed, and more. I love that this day exists and that so many spend it showering well-deserved… Read More “Happy” Mother’s Day
My goodness, if it weren’t for laughter and a sense of humor, I don’t know how one could survive this wacky world. It’s challenging enough as it is. Life can only be described as unpredictable and crazy and sometimes awful. Here’s a glimpse into my last 3 weeks. I crashed my beloved bug convertible, survived… Read More Isn’t life just funny?
I often feel as if I have lived several lives. Maybe, if one lives long enough, everyone feels this way. I don’t really know. I just know that I have played many different roles and been many different people in my lifetime of 54 years. I will fully admit that I don’t reflect on my… Read More Life and Lives
“Grief: deep sorrow; especially that caused by someone’s death.” – from the Oxford Language online dictionary. Synonyms listed for grief include anguish, agony, despair, heartache, misery, pain, mourning. Grief is a short word for a complicated and often misunderstood emotion. So many have tried to “figure it out” and explain grief to us by assigning… Read More Thoughts on Grief
Motherhood is complicated. It seems so straightforwardly simple. Biology, right? You grow this little baby, help him or her enter the world, take care of him for a few years, and then he or she goes on to live happily ever after. If only it was that simple. First of all, despite lots of well-meaning… Read More Happy Mother’s Day
Today marks the two year anniversary of my son’s death. How that can be true is absolutely beyond my comprehension. I’m still trying to come to grips with the fact that it even happened, so how can two years have gone by?? I haven’t written much about the grief I live with every day because… Read More Two years
I haven’t written in this space in a LONG time. I’m not sure why, but my writing seems to not come as easily these days. I still write in my journals because I know that it’s good for me, but even that hasn’t been as clear or happened as often. My thoughts are all jumbled,… Read More Memories Aren’t Good Enough
Why don’t I feel better Because I can’t or won’t. Because I don’t know the answers Or care about the questions. Why don’t I feel better Because I’m exhausted & over it all. Because I feel sad about everything Or maybe about nothing. Why don’t I feel better Because it keeps coming. Because I can’t… Read More Joy and despair coexist
I explain this crazy early morning phenomenon by going back to the hell reference. Getting up super early has always been something I’ve hated, so it stands to reason that in hell, I would be required to do so.
I’m struggling. But sometimes I’m not. Maybe that’s just the way we all are in life. I’m cleaning again. For the past two days, I’ve been cleaning out my office area. I found a bunch of my notebooks. I have notebooks for everything. I use them as journals, I use them for lists, random notes… Read More Gratitude
