Hard to believe that I’m at a hospital on our anniversary, and it’s not with B! Hard to believe that 7 years ago we were in Belize having the time of our lives, blissfully unaware of what was about to hit. We thought we had beat the hard stuff, overcome the obstacles, and were on… Read More Today
Grief…..you just never know. I saw a description recently that said it was like a ball in a box with a big red button. When you first experience a loss, the ball basically fills the box, so it’s always hitting the red button. Gradually the ball gets smaller, but when it does hit that button—it’s… Read More Just a night
If you are expecting one of my healthy diet and healthier lifestyle posts, this isn’t it. No awesome recipes or more ways to sneak some spinach into your diet. Nope, this is one of my “Facing Challenges” or otherwise known as whiny posts. Why do I not feel better? Why am I not “cured” of… Read More Just Why?
My “Living Healthier” blog posts are definitely going to continue, but something a little more important interrupted my writing ideas today. This post belongs under the category “Aging Gracefully” since we all face dealing with the passing of those we love, especially as we grow older. Today would have been my mom’s 79th birthday. Birthdays… Read More Chasing rainbows
Anyone else have trouble dealing with the past, living in the present, or looking to the future during the holidays??? If all those places are off limits, that doesn’t leave much space in which to live, does it?? I doubt very seriously that it’s just me. If there is one thing I’ve learned through my… Read More Where to live?
You know I want to write more, right??? It’s just hard to get my thoughts to line up on the page. My thoughts want to criss-cross and tangle, stop and start, twist and turn until I have no idea where they are going when at one point I knew. I can’t figure it out. The… Read More Broken hearts and other problems
I could blame not writing on the remodel of my house, or the busyness that seems always to be the month of May, or one of my kids, or the weather, but honestly, I’ve just not felt like it. I should clarify and say that I’ve had lots of thoughts that I would have liked… Read More New life….
Today was an anniversary of sorts, one that I NEVER thought that I would observe. It has been 6 months since Bobby died. 6 MONTHS!!! How is that possible??? How is it even possible that it happened at all?? Maybe that seems crazy that I didn’t think about this as an outcome since my husband… Read More April 16, 2018
You know I’ve been feeling that I needed to write something for a while, but like so much of my life, writing seems overwhelming. What topic? What words? And how to keep my brain focused for the time it takes seems like way too much! I realize as I write, that is possibly the dumbest… Read More Waiting
Grief and loss are complicated. Because I’m a “researcher”, I find some weird comfort in reading studies and statistics about the things that transform my life whether for better or worse. I’m always trying to understand. Of course, research studies deal with averages, and just as I’ve learned there is truly no “normal life” there… Read More Averages and Attitude