You know I want to write more, right??? It’s just hard to get my thoughts to line up on the page. My thoughts want to criss-cross and tangle, stop and start, twist and turn until I have no idea where they are going when at one point I knew. I can’t figure it out. The… Read More Broken hearts and other problems
I could blame not writing on the remodel of my house, or the busyness that seems always to be the month of May, or one of my kids, or the weather, but honestly, I’ve just not felt like it. I should clarify and say that I’ve had lots of thoughts that I would have liked… Read More New life….
Today was an anniversary of sorts, one that I NEVER thought that I would observe. It has been 6 months since Bobby died. 6 MONTHS!!! How is that possible??? How is it even possible that it happened at all?? Maybe that seems crazy that I didn’t think about this as an outcome since my husband… Read More April 16, 2018
You know I’ve been feeling that I needed to write something for a while, but like so much of my life, writing seems overwhelming. What topic? What words? And how to keep my brain focused for the time it takes seems like way too much! I realize as I write, that is possibly the dumbest… Read More Waiting
Grief and loss are complicated. Because I’m a “researcher”, I find some weird comfort in reading studies and statistics about the things that transform my life whether for better or worse. I’m always trying to understand. Of course, research studies deal with averages, and just as I’ve learned there is truly no “normal life” there… Read More Averages and Attitude
Tuesday was a day when I felt like I needed a day off. YESTERDAY was a day when I felt like I needed a day off. I would have called in sick for a “mental health” day had I had that kind of job. But I don’t, and I can’t (just like millions of… Read More Just need a day off, please
I firmly believe in the saying, “Fake it til you make it.” There is no way that one is going to go from sad to happy with a scowl all the time. SO, for me, I pretend to be strong even when I don’t feel it, and I smile when I’m not in the mood,… Read More Book Store Mania
Well, it was easy to name this post. I truly wanted to do a Thanksgiving Day post, but I couldn’t seem to get the words onto the page. So, here I am at the end of a long Black Friday that went pretty well (or so I thought) writing about my insanity. I hope that… Read More Black Friday
Every day Max and I take a walk. Sometimes we walk 30 minutes, sometimes an hour, but we always take a morning walk around the block. First, we check the bushes of my parent’s house for the cat that seems to always be lurking there. Max would love to play, but kitty doesn’t want any… Read More My life in a small town
Here I am. That’s about sums it up. I have SO much to say, but none of it seems to matter. I’m not unhappy. That doesn’t describe how I feel at all. Out of place, confused, upside down, surreal, weird, lost. None of those work either. Wrong. That’s the best way to describe how I… Read More Well, here I am.