Hard to believe that I’m at a hospital on our anniversary, and it’s not with B! Hard to believe that 7 years ago we were in Belize having the time of our lives, blissfully unaware of what was about to hit. We thought we had beat the hard stuff, overcome the obstacles, and were on… Read More Today
Grief…..you just never know. I saw a description recently that said it was like a ball in a box with a big red button. When you first experience a loss, the ball basically fills the box, so it’s always hitting the red button. Gradually the ball gets smaller, but when it does hit that button—it’s… Read More Just a night
If you are expecting one of my healthy diet and healthier lifestyle posts, this isn’t it. No awesome recipes or more ways to sneak some spinach into your diet. Nope, this is one of my “Facing Challenges” or otherwise known as whiny posts. Why do I not feel better? Why am I not “cured” of… Read More Just Why?
You know I want to write more, right??? It’s just hard to get my thoughts to line up on the page. My thoughts want to criss-cross and tangle, stop and start, twist and turn until I have no idea where they are going when at one point I knew. I can’t figure it out. The… Read More Broken hearts and other problems
Why is everything so hard? Do we make it that way, or is it just the way it is? I honestly never felt so lost or lonely. I’ve been angry some too, and since I’ve never been an angry person, it feels weird. I’ve never thought of myself as a complicated person, but I feel… Read More Make believe world
Once again (how many times do I start posts like this??), I’ve been wanting to write, and I have so many topics floating around in my head, but I just haven’t. There is always an excuse–something I should do that is more important. I can’t seem to get anything completed….I START LOTS of things, and… Read More First Fall
I could blame not writing on the remodel of my house, or the busyness that seems always to be the month of May, or one of my kids, or the weather, but honestly, I’ve just not felt like it. I should clarify and say that I’ve had lots of thoughts that I would have liked… Read More New life….
Today was an anniversary of sorts, one that I NEVER thought that I would observe. It has been 6 months since Bobby died. 6 MONTHS!!! How is that possible??? How is it even possible that it happened at all?? Maybe that seems crazy that I didn’t think about this as an outcome since my husband… Read More April 16, 2018
Well, it was easy to name this post. I truly wanted to do a Thanksgiving Day post, but I couldn’t seem to get the words onto the page. So, here I am at the end of a long Black Friday that went pretty well (or so I thought) writing about my insanity. I hope that… Read More Black Friday
Here I am. That’s about sums it up. I have SO much to say, but none of it seems to matter. I’m not unhappy. That doesn’t describe how I feel at all. Out of place, confused, upside down, surreal, weird, lost. None of those work either. Wrong. That’s the best way to describe how I… Read More Well, here I am.