You know I want to write more, right??? It’s just hard to get my thoughts to line up on the page. My thoughts want to criss-cross and tangle, stop and start, twist and turn until I have no idea where they are going when at one point I knew. I can’t figure it out. The… Read More Broken hearts and other problems
One of the days I’ve been both dreading and also sort of looking forward to is here. Today is one year since my husband passed away, and November 14 will be one year for my mom. I kind of just want to get these monumental one year anniversaries over, but there’s also fear that once… Read More Today’s the day.
Why is everything so hard? Do we make it that way, or is it just the way it is? I honestly never felt so lost or lonely. I’ve been angry some too, and since I’ve never been an angry person, it feels weird. I’ve never thought of myself as a complicated person, but I feel… Read More Make believe world
I’m on an extended road trip, my second of the summer. Currently I’m in Chicago for the very first time. Tonight I’m taking the Chicago Architectural Foundation boat tour. This was on my list of things I really wanted to do while in this city. Now, it just so happened that with the weather and… Read More Go It Alone (or with your dog)
Do you ever remember feeling kind of stuck, like maybe you can barely move even though everything is good and you are so lucky and blessed beyond your fair share? You can’t quite put a finger on what it is; you just know that something is wrong. But, it can’t be wrong because you have… Read More Love and Loss
I could blame not writing on the remodel of my house, or the busyness that seems always to be the month of May, or one of my kids, or the weather, but honestly, I’ve just not felt like it. I should clarify and say that I’ve had lots of thoughts that I would have liked… Read More New life….
Ok, this post is NOT what I thought I was going to write about, but what appears on the page isn’t always how I thought it would go. Is anyone else out there tired of all the harsh judgments of the world? WHY are we supposed to be so tough and so stoic? This holds… Read More Judgments
Today was an anniversary of sorts, one that I NEVER thought that I would observe. It has been 6 months since Bobby died. 6 MONTHS!!! How is that possible??? How is it even possible that it happened at all?? Maybe that seems crazy that I didn’t think about this as an outcome since my husband… Read More April 16, 2018
You know I’ve been feeling that I needed to write something for a while, but like so much of my life, writing seems overwhelming. What topic? What words? And how to keep my brain focused for the time it takes seems like way too much! I realize as I write, that is possibly the dumbest… Read More Waiting
Grief and loss are complicated. Because I’m a “researcher”, I find some weird comfort in reading studies and statistics about the things that transform my life whether for better or worse. I’m always trying to understand. Of course, research studies deal with averages, and just as I’ve learned there is truly no “normal life” there… Read More Averages and Attitude